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29 March 2010 @ 02:54 pm
Winding down? or just a slow day?  
Yesterday was busy. We had the Family Team in; Alice and her Martin stopped by to move my bed to a more accessible position. A heck of a logistics effort, speedily and smoothly done! and backed up by Lucy and Tom and Maggie, Mary's sister.

But it did require me to get out of bed, and get down stairs - which I did, and which took quite an effort. And after that, I was, naturally, quite tired. So not too surprising to me to find myself low on energy today and also, not particularly hungry, either. So I started gently, had two bits of toast, ate my pills like a good lad, and did a bit of trypewriter work and listened to the Andrew Marr show on Radio Four, and then - dozed off.

My oncologist rang, saying that the blood tests really didn't show anything either wonderful or worrying about them, and was more interesting in "How do you feel?" to which the answer is "Quite relaxed, not very energetic, taking the day easily..." and so on.

That is, really, pretty much what I'd expect in the final stages of a terminal illness: a sense of fading purpose, a sense of reducing energy, and a sense of withdrawal. Especially with the organ affected being the liver, and everybody I know having a cold, and my doctor has sent out for antibiotics "just in case" and a couple of peaks in temperature to around 101 F - nicely brought down by paracetamol - confirming her in making this a priority. So, no prognosis one way or another, but "there could be residual infection, so let's stamp on it."

If that's what it is, I'll gradually  improve and start to feel a bit better, and in that case, I may have a couple of months of gentle recovery before the end. If it's just "slowing down for the last station" then I might have a couple of weeks and just "fade to grey" as the final script directive. Either way, I know my place ("bottom of page 94, sir!") and neither script is worrying me. Heck, I may even have a surprise!

[Turns page...]
Current Mood: contentcontent
(Anonymous) on March 29th, 2010 02:00 pm (UTC)
Role model
Dear Guy

I never, ever, thought I'd say this. But you're a great role model.


peterfisher1 on March 29th, 2010 02:35 pm (UTC)
Re: Role model
I agree with Tebbo Guy, you really are.

I feel humble... which of course it not usually me,

But I am thinking about you, and thinking with you.

Peter Fisher

Re: Role model - (Anonymous) on March 30th, 2010 10:57 am (UTC) (Expand)
Re: Role model - (Anonymous) on April 6th, 2010 09:22 am (UTC) (Expand)
(Anonymous) on March 29th, 2010 02:28 pm (UTC)
It's all very well doing the "do not go gentle" bit, but perhaps that's best left for the intoxicated and the Welsh.

(Anonymous) on March 29th, 2010 03:26 pm (UTC)
Slow day
Wishing you April showers and May flowers Guy. Peace to you. xx Trish.
(Anonymous) on March 29th, 2010 03:36 pm (UTC)
love of friends
When death comes to us all - the only thing we can ask that we have comfort and the love of family and friends. It is just a shame that all this love can't heal you but maybe it will feed your soul. Love Jennifer and Roland.
ext_229546 on March 29th, 2010 04:56 pm (UTC)
Inspiration and Aggravation
Agree with Tebbo. Inspiring. Thank you.

Feeling aggravated though. Need advice. On how to make the most of the time we've got.

Nay tips?
Mary Branscombe: cat smilemarypcb on March 29th, 2010 08:41 pm (UTC)
Re: Inspiration and Aggravation
love people, be nice, do stuff - is what it usually comes down to. everything thing else is just a step-by-step walkthrough
(Anonymous) on March 29th, 2010 07:47 pm (UTC)
Hi Guy
"Content" is a really good place to be .. I hope that lasts. I like the sound of "gentle recovery", too .. being kind to yourself is the secret of happiness. I hope the script on page 95 & beyond is full of pleasant surprises for you.
I'm glad you have the family there to help but, if you begin to feel overcrowded, just send some of them up here as I have lots of furniture that needs moving.
With love
Mary Branscombe: cat smilemarypcb on March 29th, 2010 08:34 pm (UTC)
(Anonymous) on March 29th, 2010 10:14 pm (UTC)
Thinking of you and playing music 4 u on Blip.fm
Hi Guy

I'm Not sure about this ID business, but I wanted to check in with you and I am glad I did. Thanks for this lovely gentle post.

I will play Fade to Grey by Ultravox for you. I think its a lovely song that's always worth a listen.

I failed my driving test today for driving thru crossroads without proper precautions. But I'm enjoying Spring and the daffs are particularly gorgeous in london and here too. I think you should acquire some. :) Love from Shan
(Anonymous) on March 30th, 2010 06:07 pm (UTC)
Toast - just say 'No'
Yo Guy,

Just picked up your horizontalness; don't worry about not eating your toast, it's much over-rated.

kind regards and best wishes

Sue Schofield
(Anonymous) on March 31st, 2010 01:14 pm (UTC)
fare well
Many years ago I began reading your computing articles which were always interesting and insightful with a touch of humour and warm heartedness.

In recent years I came to know you a little as a fellow journalist and my previous impressions of you were more than confirmed on meeting you. It was always a pleasure to meet you and I am sure you have enriched the lives of many.

Sending you much love and best wishes for the journey ahead, one that we will all follow.

Mike Grenville

(Anonymous) on March 31st, 2010 03:32 pm (UTC)
Too brisk to sail today
We're marooned in the conservatory admiring wind-tossed woods - not a day for the dinghy. I'd forgotten we had a proper number plate made up for your old Volvo to put on the back of the trailor. It is still there, nestling under the cover. Tricia has ordered a summer house for the bottom of the garden. Floor, walls, window frames and roof struts are in situ. Unmoved, I'm glad to report, by a howler overnight. The forsythia is radiant, daffs are dancing and the palm tree survived the frosts. Tonight we will light Mary's sconce and think of you some more.

Peter and Tricia
(Anonymous) on March 31st, 2010 11:29 pm (UTC)
So glad to know you
Having shared a long time in the same industry and with so many mutual friends it was a real pleasure to have met with you in the last couple of years. Thanks very much Keith.
(Anonymous) on April 2nd, 2010 10:54 am (UTC)
Don't put off til tomorrow . . .
Hi Guy,

A school teacher, once said to me, if you're trying to decide whether to get on a boat or not, eventually the choice is made for you - the boat leaves. Silence is often our choice when words fail us, and finding words right now (for me at least) is a problem.

So I'll just say this. If I had a pound for every time I've quoted you, I'd probably have enough for a decent steak meal - for the Grenadier Guards. I loved the sessions we did sitting chatting on video - (I really must put a few of those on YouTube). You are my Techie Guru and a mate, and my thoughts are with you right now.

Peace and Love, Pal, and as Colin Grimshaw (Director at Imperial College TV Studio whom you will remember) was fond of saying, "Fade to Pink"!

Steve Bell.
(Anonymous) on April 8th, 2010 12:26 pm (UTC)
Rest in peace
I first came across Guy's work in PCW in 1979, and have followed him ever since. One of the greats in the industry in my opinion. He will be sadly missed.

(Anonymous) on April 8th, 2010 12:29 pm (UTC)
Goodbye and Best Wishes to Your Family
I've just read http://www.theregister.co.uk/2010/04/08/goodbye_guy/.

I'm deeply sorry to hear the news that Guy has passed away.

I remember as a young teenager reading his many articles during the eighties and always enjoyed them. I am now working in IT and Guy was the authority of common-sense which shined like a beacon through all the hyperboyle and marketing nonsense so prevalent in the IT industry.

Cancer is a terrible desease and was hoping Apple would say "A cancer cure? We have an app for that!" - but alas no.

Take Care and I hope that somewhere you are still feeling content - you had a positive influence on many, many people.